Publicerad 2015-08-29 02:32:06 i Allmänt
Vad jobbar du med?: Ingenting.
Men vad är du utbildad till?: Ingenting.
Så vad studerar du?: Ingenting.
Okej.. så.. vad gick fel?: Inte fan vet jag! ALLT! Jag har inte ens en fast bostad. På papper så bor jag på ett ställe.. ja, jag ska säga upp mig men då måste jag dit. Då måste jag anstränga mig.
Alla måste anstränga sig!: Ja.. men jag kan inte.. jag kan fan inte. Jag ska.. men stressa mig inte.
Du måste ta tag i dig själv och anstränga dig. Du som är så smart och söt.. om du förlorar ca 60 kg: JAG VET, JAG VET, JAG VET! Jag är smart! Det är fan det enda som borde spela någon roll. Vart i helvete hör min vikt in?!
Hälsoproblem. Man mår sämre när man intar dålig kost: Men håll käften. Jag orkar fan inte, jag gör inte det. Det spelar ingen jävla roll när man mår dåligt i sinnet. Har man anorexi, ja då har man det och det kommer bara att bli värre om man har en "sund kost". Är man fet och fixar en "sund kost" då mår man fortfarande lika skit eftersom att det sitter I DIN HJÄRNA!
Svaret på allt
ÄT BÄTTRE MAT. Vare sig du blev våldtagen, misshandlad eller psykiskt nedbruten. Det fungerar tydligen.
Publicerad 2015-05-07 01:44:42 i Allmänt
Jag var 16-17? Jag minns inte.. men jag skulle dö. Jag skulle lämna alla jag älskade. Jag drack mig redlös, skulle hoppa i ån (i ett fall som inte skulle lyckas mörda mer än mina torra strumpbyxor.)
Skulle jag lämna alla jag älskade? Varför? För att JAG var olycklig. Varför skulle jag lämna sorg. Jag satt och funderade, rev sönder min nacke med mina naglar. Jag kunde inte. Jag ringde polisen, "snälla hämta mig, jag är rädd att jag tar livet av mig själv."
De hämtade mig. Jag fick sova i 7an i fyllecell.
Jag dog inte. Jag sökte hjälp. Jag ville inte såra andra.
Under all denna tid så satt en låt fast i mig.. The Ark - Tell me this night is over.
Publicerad 2015-05-07 01:26:29 i Allmänt
Spring.
Stanna inte.
Spring.
Det blir inte bättre.
Du kan inte ändra honom.
Snälla, spring..
Jag älskar dig.
Publicerad 2014-03-17 19:25:45 i Allmänt
You FUCKING DID IT AGAIN!
The one who tried to save you from the first mess you were in by making you feel so shit. He came into your life again and you thought he would actually stay with you like some fucking twat piece of shit, that is the only thing you will ever deserve btw. Did you really think it would work?! You've heard it all before "We are almost the same person" "I really, really like you" he said in person "I love you".
Did you ever stop to think "This is too good.." ofc you did! You did a hundred times! Every-single-day! You should go fuck yourself because the only thing that deserves to fuck you is shit and you are shit!
STOP FALLING IN LOVE YOU FUCKING CUNT IDIOT SHITHEAD!
Publicerad 2013-10-01 12:12:00 i Allmänt
I won't deny your lack of compassion
Pain is all you know
Even a life turn of a fire
Shouldn't burn alone
'Cause the will to fight gets you slowly dying
In the heart of night
How can you survive when the dimest light
Barely touched your eyes
Publicerad 2013-07-21 04:12:00 i Allmänt
We where supposed to love eachother to the world ends
And you would never die, no.
It would never be over for you
I will love you when the worlds ends
For I will never die, no
It will never be over for me
Publicerad 2013-07-11 15:22:24 i Allmänt
Why do you keep returning? It's been years since you left me side. Why do you team up with him? Why do you both insist on returning to my dreams? I followed the mix of you trying to tell you something important. Just before i did you told me how great she was and i fell. My flightime was done and i fell to my death.
Why you? Why could i see your blue eyes so clear. Why could i see every single line in your face and remember how you smell? Why wont you just leave my head?!
Publicerad 2013-06-28 06:39:37 i Allmänt
Publicerad 2013-06-20 11:08:41 i Allmänt
Been waiting for almost 2 years now... aaaand i'm not on the waitinglist anymore. Thank you so fucking much "healtcare"!!!
One day i will snap and cut myself open so i'll get some help.
Publicerad 2013-06-19 02:26:33 i Allmänt
[2012-03-16 15:32:25] Call Rosai and cry
Publicerad 2013-06-18 15:46:09 i Allmänt
Tonights dream was all reality. You said to me that you were engaged, you where gonna move in togheter, you are gonna have a baby. It's not even been a year. Is it a contest? Live for one person, don't have your own life. I will never be that way again.
Publicerad 2013-06-03 06:58:00 i Allmänt
Publicerad 2013-06-01 01:59:26 i Allmänt
Publicerad 2013-05-14 05:36:33 i Allmänt
03:00 Yes! Play some games!
03:30 Youtube.
04:00 I'm useless *cry*
05:00 Youtube.
05:30 I should learn a new language.
05:31 I should blog about this.
I'll do it tomorrow.. klootzak!
05:35 Getting depressed again
Publicerad 2013-05-03 17:07:25 i Allmänt
Me and Dave was in Sundsvall. There was an event going on inside a connection of buildings. There where different types of rides such as rollercoasters and things that was spinning around. There was a cinema that Dave wanted to go to because there was something on a sign he wanted to see.
We came out from a cinema and we couldn't find our way back inside so i said to him. "I know the way if we go outside" so we did. As we walked there was lots of snow on the ground. I had a t-shirt and Dave had a big red jacket on. He wanted me to take it so i wouldn't get cold but i said that i'm used to this type of weather. He gave me the jacket and i couldn't be arsed to say "no" again. At this point he was a tiny nigger and his jacket was huge even for my fatness.
We came to a place near my fathers house down by the water. I thought it was so strange since it would take us hours to get there. Then i said "I know why now! It's a dream! It's a dream! Then i jumped up in the air towards the water and flew for about 3 seconds and then i woke up.
I wanted to stay in that dream for a while. I would have done so much wierd stuff.
