Every single day about 30 times a day
1. Log on to what once was my favorite game of all times.
2. Getting a feeling of anxiety and regret because i log on.
3.Character selection. No mail.
4. Quit game.
5. Cry.
I don't even know why i want mail. Maybe it's because i somehow think that it will be a good mail this time.. like "I miss you.. I am sorry. I will meet you at the airport.. hold you and never let you go."
My biggest fear is that it's going to be words of hatred and anger. That it will be something like "I never loved you. I love her and we are engaged. Doesn't that show how much i cared about you?"
Well... actually that last part is quite accurate and of course it cuts on me like a million razorblades. I just wish that he could understand why i need him so much.
Fuck you Bluebell.. nothing is the same without you. Everything i read, everything i hear is about you.. and everyone i see is you untill they turn around.
2. Getting a feeling of anxiety and regret because i log on.
3.Character selection. No mail.
4. Quit game.
5. Cry.
I don't even know why i want mail. Maybe it's because i somehow think that it will be a good mail this time.. like "I miss you.. I am sorry. I will meet you at the airport.. hold you and never let you go."
My biggest fear is that it's going to be words of hatred and anger. That it will be something like "I never loved you. I love her and we are engaged. Doesn't that show how much i cared about you?"
Well... actually that last part is quite accurate and of course it cuts on me like a million razorblades. I just wish that he could understand why i need him so much.
Fuck you Bluebell.. nothing is the same without you. Everything i read, everything i hear is about you.. and everyone i see is you untill they turn around.