The one before everything lovely
I stumbled upon my ex:s current girlfriends facebook. After all this time they are still togheter. I thought it only was a rebound girl like with my now 2 other ex:s. There are no such thing as a rebound girl. Maybe for some people but.. if you've ever been togheter with me i can promise that when you brake up with me you will find the love of your life.
Sure.. maybe you're gonna be kind of sad because of me for a while.. but that's only because you feel sorry for me. Not because you miss the times we had, when we where happy. You will try to fight for me for a while. To keep my tattered soul kind of stitched togheter. To keep us togheter. But you will start to look for someone new, if you didn't do that already from the start. When we have ended you will be togheter with that next girl for at least 5 years.
I think i fight too much for love.. or for what i have thought was love. I'm not sure it even exist. Not for people like me at least. I hold on to memories. I don't see reality. I can't see those half invisible threads that you see. The ones that seem to bind you togheter. Going from your hearts and meet eachother in what seems like eternal bliss. You're actually gone.. i can't realise that yet. All i can see and feel are the memories of us.
Maybe i paint my memories. I go back and alter them to make them even more beautiful than they actually were. I just find it really hard to let go of something that i loved so deeply. I don't want to believe that something actually could exist.
Sure.. maybe you're gonna be kind of sad because of me for a while.. but that's only because you feel sorry for me. Not because you miss the times we had, when we where happy. You will try to fight for me for a while. To keep my tattered soul kind of stitched togheter. To keep us togheter. But you will start to look for someone new, if you didn't do that already from the start. When we have ended you will be togheter with that next girl for at least 5 years.
I think i fight too much for love.. or for what i have thought was love. I'm not sure it even exist. Not for people like me at least. I hold on to memories. I don't see reality. I can't see those half invisible threads that you see. The ones that seem to bind you togheter. Going from your hearts and meet eachother in what seems like eternal bliss. You're actually gone.. i can't realise that yet. All i can see and feel are the memories of us.
Maybe i paint my memories. I go back and alter them to make them even more beautiful than they actually were. I just find it really hard to let go of something that i loved so deeply. I don't want to believe that something actually could exist.