Bluebell
How come you don't realize until something is gone? How his eyes were as beautiful as a calm lake in the summer or how much I wish he were here. I knew before what I wanted. I wanted him here with me. We would walk in the glimmering snow that was in competition with our footsteps. I would tell you something stupid. Like the way i think the glitter on the snow isn't reflections. It is an aura around every person that we only can see when it's snow on the ground and the sun shines on it. You'd smile at me. Stop me softly with your hand. Look me deep in the eyes, take away my scarf from my cold nose down to my jaw line and kiss my lips. I would kiss you back and hug your beautiful body. We would feel the wormth of each others hearts even though it was -17°C outside.
I'm so afraid you'll disappear into love again before we met. Before I get to show just how much I love you. Your personality, your laugh .. the whole wonderful and beautiful you. If you only knew how deep in my heart you really are. How truly beautiful you are. How you shine and sparkel in my heart. I hope we will get what we once had back. If I could do it all over again in a better way I would.
If I could just hold you right now I would be the happiest I've ever been before.