Weak
I often wonder why i'm still this hurt about him leaving. I mean.. he did not even meet me before he decided to move on. I know i was not perfect at all and i know that if i went back in time i wouldn't have hurted him the way i did. But then again.. he would have probably left me anyways. I can not love someone. If i love, they will leave.
It's still painfull and it still hurts and i am so scared of falling again. I don't want to fall because each time i do no one is there to catch me. No matter how many promises on their loved ones they make, they always drop me.
I wish i could think less. Every thought that runs trought me is filled with agony. My anxiety is getting a little bit better i think even though it's still there and today was not a good day. I feel sick and weak.
It's still painfull and it still hurts and i am so scared of falling again. I don't want to fall because each time i do no one is there to catch me. No matter how many promises on their loved ones they make, they always drop me.
I wish i could think less. Every thought that runs trought me is filled with agony. My anxiety is getting a little bit better i think even though it's still there and today was not a good day. I feel sick and weak.