Banana...
What's the use of anything anymore? I have nothing to look forward to. My loan will probably be cancelled and i will have to stay here. I can't stand this pain. I do nothing. I play Guild Wars 2 with my hateobject (you know who you are you fucking idiot <3), eat, cry, sleep, wake up, cry.
I just wanted to be happy and i thought i could be that with him but he's gone.. he is so gone. We never spoke because of her even though i got promised we would. This is probably the deepest pain i have been in. Seeing someone you love just go trought life while having a great time without you. I wish i could be happy for him but i can't because i still love him.
Rules for the future
1. Don't let anybody in your heart.
2. Don't look in your closet. You will see the flag, you will be reminded of him on the fragrance. Most likely kill yourself this time.
3. Keep hurting yourself if you need to.
4. Don't loose hope. Hope is the last thing that leaves the body. Maybe you'll meet him in a year or so.. and you could try again.
I just wanted to be happy and i thought i could be that with him but he's gone.. he is so gone. We never spoke because of her even though i got promised we would. This is probably the deepest pain i have been in. Seeing someone you love just go trought life while having a great time without you. I wish i could be happy for him but i can't because i still love him.
Rules for the future
1. Don't let anybody in your heart.
2. Don't look in your closet. You will see the flag, you will be reminded of him on the fragrance. Most likely kill yourself this time.
3. Keep hurting yourself if you need to.
4. Don't loose hope. Hope is the last thing that leaves the body. Maybe you'll meet him in a year or so.. and you could try again.