People always leave
I really don't blame people for leaving. It hurts, it does. I guess i should be used to it already. I wonder how long it will take for you too leave aswell. It's like my ability to make new friends are gone. I have three friends in real life. Even if we haven't met in ages and then meet, it's like they never left.
I really don't like to be this person but i really don't think you can just choose happiness that simple as other people can. You broke up with your girlfriend? Get a new, better one. Simple as that. I will never be able to understand how people works. Happy people so to speak. Careless people who never think of anything but fucking their girlfriend or boyfriend. People always hides away from the darkness. They never really want to feel it. They hang out with their mates trying to forget things that are bad. Taking drugs because it numbs or whatever.
I just can't hide away from the darkness. It lives side by side with me. It's always there. The one i love used to make the pain go away a bit. I actually considered myself happy at one point. When he was there my anxiety slowly faded away. Then he got another girlfriend and i had to run to the toilet to throw up. As i said before.. i never thought he would leave me. Then again.. people always leave.
I really don't want the only one i speak to anymore to leave. But i know it will happen sooner or later. I guess i should be glad that he even wants to talk to me after everything he must have heard from others. I like the fact that he's not a happy person and not even trying to be one.
Happiness is lies but yet.. i'm still waiting for someone that has left me for somebody else. I'm stupid and naive.
I really don't like to be this person but i really don't think you can just choose happiness that simple as other people can. You broke up with your girlfriend? Get a new, better one. Simple as that. I will never be able to understand how people works. Happy people so to speak. Careless people who never think of anything but fucking their girlfriend or boyfriend. People always hides away from the darkness. They never really want to feel it. They hang out with their mates trying to forget things that are bad. Taking drugs because it numbs or whatever.
I just can't hide away from the darkness. It lives side by side with me. It's always there. The one i love used to make the pain go away a bit. I actually considered myself happy at one point. When he was there my anxiety slowly faded away. Then he got another girlfriend and i had to run to the toilet to throw up. As i said before.. i never thought he would leave me. Then again.. people always leave.
I really don't want the only one i speak to anymore to leave. But i know it will happen sooner or later. I guess i should be glad that he even wants to talk to me after everything he must have heard from others. I like the fact that he's not a happy person and not even trying to be one.
Happiness is lies but yet.. i'm still waiting for someone that has left me for somebody else. I'm stupid and naive.